released April 24, 2023

All songs composed by S. James Curtis between 2019 and 2023.
Photography by S. James Curtis, see bigdumbanimal.ca for more

Drums that were not composed using EZDrummer 3 by Toontrack came from the following purchased, royalty free sample packs:

SoundtrackLoops:

The Greatest Jazz Beats
Brazilian Lounge
Turntable Scratch Pack
Studio Breaks
Lofi Cuts
Lofi Drift
Loop Theory Tokyo Downtempo
Melancholy Chill Hop
Superfreak Studio Beats
Jazzy Trip Hop

Recorded with Ableton Live and Cakewalk by Bandcamp.
Virtual Instruments include:
Arturia Analog Lab 4 and 5
Cherry Audio Memorymode, Lowdown, and Dreamsynth
Toontrack EZ Drummer 3, EZ Bass, and EZ Keys Mellotoon
Robotic Bean Portatron
Vinyl effect by Izotope
Tape effect by Klevgrand
Sandman Pro plugins
Stardust Echo

Gear includes:
Arturia - Minilab MK3, Microfreak
Novation: Launchkey MK3 37, Launchpad Mini MK3
Unbranded baritone ukulele
'Oli'Oli bass ukulele
GUPtech KSTR and Berr(everb)
Donner Echo Square
Zoom A1 Four

Which is which?
Lights Behind The City (Neon Village, Role of a Lifetime)
Out In The Rain (A Bigger Tub, Love Letters)
Forgiveness Without Forgetting (Like A Family Again, Leaves)
Moving Out Of Time (Some Highway Somewhere West Of Here, Role of a Lifetime)
Water Runs Warm (Soaked In You, Leaves bonus track)
Versus Atrophy (Handmade Feelings, Object With Feelings)
Standing In A Shaft Of Sunlight (Previously unreleased Leaves era outtake)
Hearts Without Warranty (Convalesce, Leaves)
You're My Super Sentai (Hearing You Breathe, Love Letters)
The Platform Between Lines (Tracks Between Us, Leaves)
Everything Hurts And It Won't Stop (Slide And Tumble And Fall Among The Dead, Role Of A Lifetime)
All Saints' Wake (Previously Unreleased)
And This Is Where I Leave You (Neon Village, Role of a Lifetime)


Thanks go to, well, you for one because you bought this and I am grateful that you did. The list however goes here: Cedric, my beloved Super Sentai, my logical and leather families, Chromadrift, Beargtatt, and PolyAtomic. Thank you to my dear playtesters over the years including Yetti, Butch, Gil, Seth, Drew, N, Briant, and now Grant and Cody. This album is dedicated to the people in my life who have since passed on over the last 20 years, and those who will after its release.

It's not the things we stand and fight against that should sustain us, but the things we fight for. It is the freedom of self expression, of love, of existence. We need to stand together, protect each other, get loud, get violent when needed, and remind those that need to hear it that we are here, we are queer, and our lives cannot be boiled down into lifestyles any more than a cisgender, heteronormative person.

We've been here the whole time. We aren't going anywhere.
-SJC